i know i havent been on here in forever, but i love this song and i was thinking and its most definitly my theme song so here you go :)

"Just A Little Bit"

Just a little bit stronger
Just a little bit wiser
Just a little less needy
And maybe i'd get there.

Just a little bit pretty
Just a little more aware
Just a little bit thinner
And maybe i'd get there...

Clearly, clearly I remember
Hiking up my skirt
Asking for your time

Clearly, clearly I remember
Nervous if ever confronted
And questioning myself

Perhaps, perhaps if I got better
Perhaps if I challenged myself
Perhaps if I was

Just a little bit stronger
Just a little bit wiser
Just a little less needy

Maybe I'd get there...

Clearly, clearly I remember
Pulling up my skirt
Staring blank ahead

Clearly, clearly I remember
Days of useless crying
Almost feeling dead

Perhaps, perhaps if I was smaller
Perhaps, I could control myself
Perhaps if I was

-maria mena

just a little bit stronger, less needy, prettier, maybe id get there, maybe id get there; but im not there yet.

i love...

making people feel better, movies that you can cry at, sappy love story novels, driving down a never ending road not knowing whats on the other side, laughing so hard you cry,  flowers given to you by someone that really matters, going "out on the town", getting really lost with your best friend when your about to be late for something, finally forgiving somebody after a long time of hurting, dancing how you feel, the burn and blysters of your toes after a long lesson of point, eating thin crust peperoni pizza from pizza hut whild watching you favorite movie, really really corny jokes

ill be adding to this list after work...sorry i cant finish :(

b e s t

1. Male friend: the sad thing is i dont think i have one male friend im close to.  hopefully that will change by the time work is over

2. Female friend: Alanna

l a s t

1. Person you saw: people from work...miguel
2. Talked to on the phone: alanna
3. Hugged: my mom
4. Text: melissa
5. messaged over myspace: nobody

t o d a y

1. wearing: staff shirt and white jeans shorts from old navy
2. better than yesterday? ya prolly maybe

t o m o r r o w

1. Is: gonna be stressful
2. Got any plans: sleep and work
3. Dislikes about tomorrow: i know ill be stressed and inpatient because of the kids

f a v o r i t e

1. Number: 3
2. Color: soft rose pink
3. Season: summer

c u r r e n t l y

1. Missing someone:  yaaa
2. Mood: very very tired, irritated, inpatient
3. Wanting: to go swimming

Q: First thing you did this morning?
A: hit the snooze button because 6:00 is way to early for anyone to have to get up

Q: Do you have anything bothering you?:
A: a couple things i guess

Q: What's annoying you right now?
A: that its still 8 days till my bday and i cant just go, go drive for a while

Q: What's the last movie you saw?:
A: bruce almighty

Q: Do you believe in long distance relationships?:
A: idk depends on the people, i dont know if i could do it to tell you the truth

Q: Is there a person who is on your mind right now:
A: yeah

Q: Where is the last place you went?
A: work

Q: Who is the last person you called?:
A: alanna

Q: Do you look like your mom or dad?:
A: My mom

Q: Do you have any siblings?:
A: yeah... older sister

Q Do you smile often?:
A: yeah.. most the time

Q: Do you think that a person is thinking of you?
A: i sure hope so

Q: Choose to have (love, beauty, creativity):
A: love...

Q: Do you wish upon stars?
A: always

Q: Are you a friendly person?:
A: yeah i try to be

Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last night?:
A: uh mine

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?:
A: sunshine yeller!!

Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?:
A: on the computer

Q: Do you have more guy friends or girl friends?
A: girl...idk maybe, i have a lot of guy friends but not as close and my girls

Q: When was the last time you cried?
A: probly not to long ago...im emotional haha

Q: Do you get angry easily?
A: ya kinda, my fault is that i tend to jump to conclutions

Q: What was your last thought before you went to sleep last night?
A: danm i have to wake up in 5 hrs, and something else...

Q: Take any vitamins?
A: rarely

Q: What are you about to do?
A: take some advil and call my mommy

Q: What song are you listening to right now?
A: law and order theme song

Q: Would you rather be single or in a relationship?
A: relationship

Q: Rate life as of right now 1-10.
A: 10...i live life and i accept what i have and know everythings gonna be ok

so thanks to margo for that and ya!
8 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and for those of you who dont know what im talking about well then you just dont barley know me then now do you?!

my birthday is in 15
days!!!!!!!! yay for me.

so so like i freakin love summer but like im kinda bored tho because i cant like drive and stuff, so i really cant wait for 15 days from now cuz then im jsut gonna like drive everywhere and it will be amaizing but ya im excited for that.

id say tho, that the thing i love most about summer is that im excaping all of the drama, and im getting away from people and im able to kind of step back and anylize every thing that went on over the year, and try to make me better, and now i have me time and thats nice for a change.  and i dont have to do something everyday, like today for example i stayed in my pjs till 4:00 and just played computer games etc and then i showered and like jsut got all my makeup on and put on a cute outfit even tho i had no where to go. and that was good.

i love you...